Sometimes I find it impossible to continue on in the work that I do. Can I really persevere through the cocktail of pain, abuse, addiction, and mental health issues that these women struggle with daily? It makes me think, have I been weak in my life? I can barely keep myself afloat just trying to help these women amidst the difficulties they face, and I'm not the one faced with any of these problems myself. Sure, I have gone through my ups and downs in life like anyone else. But at the end of the day, the kind of love and support that I come home to...how can I complain? I ponder...am I too sensitive...what do I have to offer with the relatively "easy" life that I have led...I can't relate to this kind of suffering...I am at the end of myself. I guess that's an adequate place to be.
This journey has been arduous. I will endure.
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Yes you will endure my friend....
Jacquie, if I know anything about you at all, you are the woman that can do this job. God has blessed you with this crazy love and passion for other people. You are empathic, sincere, honest and loyal. Whether or not this exact job is in God's long-term plan, I believe you are going to be an advocate for women throughout your entire life. I think this is inevitable because of your care and concern for others.
God has orchestrated each step for you and I'm so confident in your ability to be the comfort and outlet these hurting women need. Sometimes it seems weird that girls like us, a little sheltered and naive at times, can make a difference in people's lives...but we are used according to God's purpose! Without you, a shining light in a dark world, these women might not have the opportunity to know the God we know.
If you feel something new coming, or transition....roll with it. After all, our crazy in charge God will let us know where we've gone wrong ;)
I love you girl. I think you're too precious that you've planted a garden. Oooo if I knew this Jacquie in high school! We would have been sewing and planting gardens rather than driving around town playing "Spider Woman" and scaring little neighbor girls. "My name is not Mekenzie, it's Aaaashley"....lol.
XOXOXOX
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